Listening: nothing
Doing: trying to use my MSN messenger... ^^++
Wearing: puncak tsihrit and the same shorts i wear yesterday
Thinking: jangan ampe gue kena panggil
Sorry.. but I really have to blog in Indonesian now.. sorry...
SUMPAH LOE?! hari ini lagi rame banget ama masalah kakak kelas manggilin adik kelas... AKA digencet bowh.. aduh pusink gue.. masalahnya udah 6 orang dipanggil!! Semuanya terhitung temen gue lagi!!
Yang pertama itu si Wully kemaren dia digiring ampe deket portal yang gerbang rumahnya Kak Louise. Di situ kayaknya dia udah mau parah nih digencetnya... Tapi PC's dad came to the rescue!!! jadinya dia selamet deh.. cuman sempet dibentak-bentak aja.. tetep aja garank-garank bow.. serem aja deh pokoknya... dia dimak-maki soal waktu dia negor anak kelas 1 yang namanya Vivi. terus dipaksa ngasi tau nama yang lain yang ikut nyamperin si Vivi.
Terus yang kedua, tadi, si Della... dipanggil lagi... wif the same senior... dia lebih parah.. dimak-maki ampe ditoyor gitu kepalanya... (ditempelenk) terus dia juga didorong2.. pokoknya abis2an deh! ampe dia nangis! kesian banget deh.. tabah ya del.. dia dibentak2 katanya bajunya kekecilan.. besok dia harus pake baju kelas 1, kalo nggak mau dibugilin.. amit-amit deh gue.
Itu istirahat pertama, yang istirahat kedua... PC, Olive, and Jay dipanggil... yang ini untungnya gak parah2 banget.. cuman ditereak2in biasalah.. tetep aja itu golongan sangar tapi.. bisa bikin budeglah paling nggak..
Terus yang terakhir, si milka, dipanggil waktu istirahat ketiga. Unlike the other girls, she wasn't scrared. Not even close. Dia ngelawan. Sumpah! dia tuh bener2 pahlawan banget deh! berani banget gitu.. hebat2.. nyali besar... gue salut soalnya gue pasti gak bisa kayak gitu... katanya dia BH-nya dijepret, Kakak kelasnya itu pada sebel ama Milka karena Milka kalo pake BH warna-warni.. ^^;; tau deh.. pokoknya yang jelas Milka berani banget!!
Huehh.. cape cerita.. gotta run to the toilet!
out of the darkness and into the sun 9:16 PM
Monday, September 29, 2003
Listening: this osng in the radio... "monalisa...monalisa..."
Doing: Writing an email for Mariska
Wearing: this tshirt i paint on my last year art class..
Thinking: Umm.... how did wully do?
My friend, Wully was call out by the seniors today. And that was totally freakin' us out! We hope nothing bad happened to her... The seniors brang Wully to someplace quiet.. I think they were really gonna do this seriously.. Luckily, PC's dad came to the rescue.. he came up to them and told them not to harm her and stuff. I guess she'd be safe... let's just hope she didn't tell on PC.
Aduhh.. bahasa inggris gue kayak sayur toge campur jagung... ngerti??? maksudnya berantakan gituu...
out of the darkness and into the sun 8:53 PM
Saturday, September 27, 2003
Listening: Hidell
Doing: thinking about the new skins..
Wearing: shorts and t-shirt
Thinking: Nothing
Eating: Cherry Ripe
My Blogskins designer carrer is so messed up... *hhh....* people didn't seem to like my newest skins!! ;_; that's sad, because I spend most of the times thinking about how my new skins would look like.. sometimes, people just don't appreciate my hard-work.. ^^; Guess it's OK though. I kinda enjoyed making skins myself.. I guess...
Anyway, I'm totally alone right now. Literally! VQ is at her friend's house doing some school project. My parents has gone to the office?? On Saturday??? well, I don't really get that either.. but they always go to the office everyday. Except on Sunday and other holidays.
So, I'm left alone here. I called Fanny, invited her to my house. You know, so I could get some company here. But she wasn't sure so I guess she wouldn't come anyway. I was almost desperate then, because this stupid compy-chan was kinda broke down. Yeah, well, now it's good and I'm still bored of boredom??
out of the darkness and into the sun 3:27 PM
Friday, September 26, 2003
Listening: Perfect - Simple Plan
Doing: browsing some stuff..
Wearing: my school uniform..
Thinking: "...umm.. nothing.. really.. nothing.."
The physics test was amazingly easy, but I didn't get all the answers right!! urgghh..... I miscount almost all of the final answers!! shiiii~~iit!!!! hixx... Selamat tinggal gelar anak IPA yang kudambakan... Oh well, life goes on...
out of the darkness and into the sun 8:07 PM
Thursday, September 25, 2003
Listening: Faint - Linkin Park
Doing: making a new layout for Satwa Blog
Feeling: a little bit drousy..
Wearing: my school uniform..
Thinking: "I really need to wash my hair..."
I'll be having this physics test tommorow.. Well, it was suppose to be held last Thursday but the teacher postponed it for some reason.. So I guess I'll have to study again.. I am so not in the mood to study.. ^^;
out of the darkness and into the sun 9:40 PM
Wednesday, September 24, 2003
Listening: One Thing by Finger Eleven
Doing: chatting with Ray and Aska
Feeling: hugry
Thinking: "so damn hungry...."
Ummm.... I don't understand.. am i really that rude??? some of my friend said that I always raise my voice and that made me sound rude.. I really don't get it! I used to talk like that, and no one ever complains... on the contrary, my best friend, Sasha said that it was one of her fave things about me.. I say what I wanna say and I always tried not to be a two faced bitch. People is being more sensitive these days.. Geez, and people actually starting to hate me because of my rudeness... one other thing that I don't get from people like them... why don't they act the same way to some other person who talk like me??
BTW.. gue lagi sebel sama satu anak cowo di kelas gue yang asli belagu banget!
Shit!!! Gue sebel banget deh!!! kenapa juga musti ada orang kaya dia??? urghhh!!! ARGH!! najiz banget! uda egois! belagu! sok suci banget sih loe jadi orang! bisanya cuman ngajak berantem dan bikin panas orang laen!? maunya apa sehhhhhhhh????? sumpa deh, ada aja anak kayak eloe?! bisanya cuman nampang ama maki2 orang?! URGHHH!!!!! tau deh yang kayaaa... tau deh yang gantenkkkkk.... tau deh.. tau deh... iya gue tau suara loe keras kayak toa??? terus???? sooo??? pokoknya inget aja deh, gara-gara eloe semua pasti jadinya berantakan!!! najiz tau gak?!?? punya hati ama otak gak sih loe??? get a life will ya???
out of the darkness and into the sun 9:50 PM
Sunday, September 21, 2003
Listening: Ain't No Mountain High Enough [OST Step Mom]
Doing: browsing blogskins
Feeling: normal
Thinking: "shit.. my arm still hurts..."
Ain't No Mountain High Enough
Listen, baby
Ain't no mountain high
Ain't no vally low
Ain't no river wide enough, baby
If you need me, call me
No matter where you are
No matter how far
Just call my name
I'll be there in a hurry
You don't have to worry
'Cause baby,
There ain't no mountain high enough
Ain't no valley low enough
Ain't no river wide enough
To keep me from getting to you
Remember the day
I set you free
I told you
You could always count on me
From that day on I made a vow
I'll be there when you want me
Some way,some how
'Cause baby,
There ain't no mountain high enough
Ain't no valley low enough
Ain't no river wide enough
To keep me from getting to you
No wind, no rain
My love is alive
Way down in my heart
Although we are miles apart
If you ever need a helping hand
I'll be there on the double
As fast as I can
Don't you know that
There ain't no mountain high enough
Ain't no valley low enough
Ain't no river wide enough
To keep me from getting to you
Don't you know that
There ain't no mountain high enough
Ain't no valley low enough
Ain't no river wide enough
out of the darkness and into the sun 1:15 PM
Saturday, September 20, 2003
Listening: I Wanna Know by Hidell
Doing: nothing
Feeling: a little bit sleepy
Thinking: Hidell
Wearing: Bali shorts and t-shirt
Went to Della's birthday party last night. Couldn't get home. Dad was furious. It was really late. Slept at PC's house. Pretty much simple. Yeap, that's it.
I still think dad would never let me go anywhere for like the next two months!! And I still think, it's not my fault. Couldn't maybe he thought for a while?? I mean the party started at 7 and he wanted me to get home by 9?? Don't you think that's impossible??you know, thinking the fact that I don't drive, I don't have a car, I can't drive, I don't have any money to get a taxi, It was late at night, and I was alone. Shouldn't he be thinking about picking me up?? I think he should! Well, at least I wish he had picked me up or something. I was like, "No I can't get a taxi, no money!!" and he was like, "So?? I don't care!! get your ass back home before 10!" .....duh? how was that suppose to be possible? I was like in the middle of a not-any-place-I-known-or-been-before. urgh..
Well at least I had some fun with my friends.. I think.. yeah, the paintball was fun! :D And the pizza were good. Della is really nice and her frineds too. Though, I think they were much older than me. But it's cool, they were awesome too.
Oh, and the most surprising thing when I got home here today is that my dad didn't actually yell and mad at me (I know my mom would) He does looked pretty mad and that's kinda make me feel guilty. OK, so I make mistakes, so? And he bought me new DVDs and an auto-focus pocket camera which is weird, because he was suppose to be mad at me.
Aaah.. yep I hate Hilary Duff and Mandy is getting way cooler every time I watch her new movie.
out of the darkness and into the sun 6:16 PM
Thursday, September 18, 2003
Listening: Bigger Than My Body by John Mayer
Doing: Chatting with than2
Feeling: nothing unusual..
Thinking: my chemistry test tommorow.. and that boy...
hmmm... they canceled my physics test today.. which I studied for last night!! I was like spending 3 hours doing physics problems and.... I think it's kinda worthless. The teacher postponed the test til next week! O God... now I have to study for that damn Chem test... sshh... life is hard..
Still can't believe, PC called him kayak ngko2 glodok??? sialan.. -__-;; hehehe... komentar yang seperti menandakan bahwa gue gak ada saingan buat dapetin dia... hehehe... masalahnya sekarang adalah.. he's my junior.. and I haven't even talked to him!!
out of the darkness and into the sun 8:04 PM
Monday, September 15, 2003
Listening: If I Fall Back Down by Rancid
Surfing: Rupert Grint Fansite
Feeling: a little bit tacky.. and sleepy..
Thinking: ooohh... my cozy little bed...
Me and my other 5 friends went to Orientar yesterday. It was very crowded and we got wet by rain twice. Well, at least me, PC, and Olive did. Wully, Prilly, and Jay were like seperated from us. They were at the tribune and we weren't. I almost stuoidly faint!! That was so embarassing. ^^; Well, yeah, I didn't eat so.. I was out of energy. Yup, it was all my fault. Hehehe... I know.. I know.. and I missed the front row stand to Too Phat! Damn, I really regret that.. Too Phat was awesome!! They're really cool.. you know, all that break-dancing stuff makes me kinda impressed.
We got back to PC's house at around 10 and we slept around 1-2 am. O yeah, we also sang Happy Birthday to Della on phone, at exactly midnight. Well, a few minutes past I think.
So, I had a blast and a wonderful tima. Thanks to everyone there. And no thank to myself.. Gue kerjanya cuman bgrepotin orang doank!! -__-
Special thanks for PC and Olive for being there...
out of the darkness and into the sun 7:57 PM
Thursday, September 11, 2003
Syumpe loe??? Just got back from Bintaro Plaza. Some stupid mall near mt house.. Can you guess who I saw there?? It was this cute guy from Mischa's class! ^^= so of course, he's my junior.. hehehe... I was like so excited and I kept ringing Fanny's cell. Then I met my old school friend.. a guy.. you know the one they used to call Bule Depok? Yup, I saw Onil right after I went out from the book store!
fiuhh.. what a day.. and I still have to study for my sosiology test tommorow and make some drawings for my class' t-shirts design. So, c ya.
out of the darkness and into the sun 10:26 PM
Wednesday, September 10, 2003
Listening: Game Of Love by Santana feat. Michelle Branch
Surfing: Wannabe Weblog
Doing: nothin'
Thinking: "at lassssstttt.... no tests!"
Yippy!!! finally!! no tests for tommorow!! I don't have to study today!!! I could really do rest.. :)
Tadi ulangan mat ama agama, dua2nya cara gak jujur tuh.. :P abis mau gimana lagi?? puwsink nih.. sama sekali blon belajar soalnya tadi.. but I didn't really cheat you know.. just a little peak at some notes.. hehehe..
out of the darkness and into the sun 9:43 PM
Tuesday, September 09, 2003
yea well good things also happens.. ^^
out of the darkness and into the sun 10:28 PM
Being betrayed or backstabbed is an awful feeling.. I can really tell.. And it's kinda happen to me over and over again.. I wasn't really being back-stabbed or anything.. but.. it still hurts you know.. I really need a good friend to talk to right jow.. Just hope that my other friends doesn't do the anything like her. I don't really know how to explain it.. all I know is that I feel hurt, sad, betrayed, alone, confused and most of all I feel like shit. I really feel like my existance in this world never matters to anyone.. I feel like I'm close into dying..
..
Yea, well maybe I was just being too pathetic and stupid.. but oh well.. let's just face the world and move on. She was sorta nice to me today. Really nice, if you ask me.. but, shit happens.. and I accidently read a little note about she talking about me (again) to her other friend (again). And once again... it hurts..
--
Say Anything by Good Charlotte
Here I am on
The phone again, and
Awkward silence is
On the other end
I used to know the sound
Of a smile in your voice
But right now (right now)
All I feel (All I feel)
Is the pain of the fighting
Starting up again
All the things we talk about
You know they stay on my mind
On my mind
All the things we laugh about
They'll bring us through it every time
After time after time
Don't say a word
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away
I know you wanna stay
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Some say that
Time changes
Best friends can
Become strangers
But I don't want that
No, not for you
If you just stay with me, we can make it through
So Here we are again
The same old argument
And now I'm wonderin'
If things'll ever change, yeah
When will you laugh again?
Laugh like you did back when
We'd make noise til 3 AM and the neighbors would complain
All the things we talk about
You know they stay on my mind
On my mind
All the things we laugh about
They'll bring us through it every time
After time after time
Don't say a word
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away
I know you wanna stay
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
I'm fallin' I'm fallin'
I'm fallin' down
I'm fallin' I'm fallin'
I'm fallin' down
Down Down Down
out of the darkness and into the sun 8:03 PM
Monday, September 08, 2003
I got this two stupid tests tommorow.. argh!! PPKn and Geography! -__-++
Just found out my physics scores today.. it was totally unbelievably terrible!! I got 1/10 for my first test, 4/10 for my second one, 6 for homeworks, and 3 for the average score.. I am so dead!!
out of the darkness and into the sun 10:11 PM
Sunday, September 07, 2003
Just watched English For Fun in TVRI! Hehehe.. it's really fun watching your friends on TV and know exactly they would win the game.. :P
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I went to PIM and TA yesterday.. yep! in one day! I was like spending the whole day at the mall.. ^^; but I was with my family.. so yea.. it's cool.. At PIM we met VQ's friends.. Well, one of them is her crush so she gets weirdly shyer and quieter. It was kinda freaky cuz me and her mom kept staring at the boy. And VQ almost looked like Sadako, since she let her face covered by her hair. We were all having fun teasing her all day! It was a REAL FUN! Though, I had to admit.. the boy was pretty cute! So it's fun also just to stare at that boy.. it made VQ embarassed and he's worth looking! I really enjoyed that.. ^^=
At TA, VQ's mom bought us new clothes and some chopsticks (i have no idea) for our hair. But the most exciting part was.. we met Roger! You know, he's a famous actor here.. I used to have a BIG crush on him, but I kinda get sick of him.. cuz he's everywhere.. And he looked really.. really... *cries*hot*sob* and I don't even had the guts to say hello.. -__-;; damn I was to fuckin' shy just to look at him!! grauuuuuuu...... nyesel abis-abisan neh... hixx..
--
Anyway, I'm planning to drive by through his house today...
out of the darkness and into the sun 3:59 PM
Friday, September 05, 2003
Arghh.. I should have post an entry yesterday.. but I couldn't.. stupid compy-chan didn't work!
So, I had this stupid chemistry test which I failed. At first, I didn't know a thing about entalphys and stuff.. so I tried to read and learn from my textbook. But it didn't go really well. I'm still stupid. Well, I know people can't be smart just by reading a book in one night... but I really had to know something for the test!? Since the book plan didn't go really well, I ask Randy to teach me on phone... I called him, and spent the next 2 ours talking about entalphys, endoterms, exoterms, and stuff.. OK, so.. today I studied again.. at school.. a lot.. I did exercises over and over and over again...
Finally, it's time for the test. The teacher gave us the first period to study, so I studied again. My brain felt kinda empty and desperately became more stupid.. Then she gave us the test... 5 problems and I only managed to finish 2...
I know.. I AM STUPID!!!!!! ARGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
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Beside my chemistry disastrous story... now I'm talking indonesian 'gain..
gue dapet fotonya dia banyak banget!!! ^^ senang sekali........
Geez, I'm like totally had a crush in this guy.. but well.. you know...
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I Wanna Get To Ya
I've got a secret I can't keep
I've got my eyes on something sweet
It feels like my heart's pounding through my chest
You've got a smile I can't resist
I get tongue tied, everytime you and I are close like this
Girl, here's my wish
I wanna get to ya
I wanna be the one that moves ya
I wanna give my heart to ya
I want you so much
Girl I know just what I've been missing
I wanna be the one you're kissin'
So open up your arms and listen
I wanna get to ya
I'm the kind of guy who understands
A simple little thing like holding hands
Or x's and o's on a love note sent to you
I'll make you a promise that I'll keep
I'm telling you, right here, right now
I'll get down on my knees
I'll do anything
out of the darkness and into the sun 8:52 PM
Tuesday, September 02, 2003
I kinda start the day with some kind of a bad mood feelings.. -__-' Well, I thought I need more sleep and I haven't studied for my Biology test (I was too busy with my photos from the photography class!!) I forgot all about my tests!! So, I tried to read some of the materials in the car... but.. I fell asleep.. and I woke up right after I got to school. So I kinda screwed my own plan. Then I tried to study again.. at school.. and.. I got drowned in some conversation with my friends.. ^^; again.. it was useless. Luckily I got some snippets about the test's questions from the other class. But still, it was useless. I still tried memorizing all the materials at once. Now, normal people might not good at this. But I managed to memorized all of the materials in like an hour or so. Kinda cool huh? hehe.. oh no, I'm getting to snob. *plak!* OK, I'm back. So, I finally past the test. I did the test quite quick and.. well.. you know..
Before I started the test, I was a bit sleepy and tired and stressed and etc. So I kinda talk in harsh. Two boys who were sitting behind me asked some questions like "You're not in good mood are you?" ("Loe lagi bete ya?") and I answered,"No I'm just sleepy" ("Kagak cuman ngantuk!") Kinda felt guilty, cuz I was like yelling and not talking very nicely to them.. ^^;; I didn't really paid attention when they talked so... maybe they felt a little disrespected or something..
But I got better during the whole after the Biology test. After that, we also had an English test. I helped the other guy finished his test and I got minus 1 for my test!! (Anez.. you'll pay.. hehe gpp deh relain aja!) Oh well, I'll consider that as a punishment for helping! -_____-;
I sorta aslept right after I got home. In bed of course. Woke up. Took a shower and now I'm typing this entry. nyaahh.. I'm totally gonna eat my dineer now..
OMG! I forgot to study foe the Bahasa Indonesia test tommorow!! *yipes* gotta go!
out of the darkness and into the sun 9:45 PM
Monday, September 01, 2003
Listening: Beautiful - Christina Aguilera
Thinking: "Tried so hard to fill the emptiness... The piece is goonnee~~ee!!" (Christina's Beautiful"
Doing: Looking for some new fanlistings to join
Reading: Great Expectations by Charles Dickens
Jadi gak gereja deh hari ini... gara-gara gak ada yang nganterin ke Gereja..
Tadi abis beres-beres rumah gara-gara si papa mau ngebasmi tikus-tikus yang tiap malem bikin rusuh di attic. Huahh.. I don't mind the fuzz just leave my stuff alone.. hehe.. Tadi juga nemu banyak banget barang-barang yang tadinya kita pikir uda pada ilang.. ternyata masih utuh cuman uda debuan gak jelas di mana-mana... tapiii... ada juga sih yang kena digigitin ama tikus brengsek.. ^^+ Giliran dicari malah gak ketemu.. ngumpet entah dimana! Bikin cape orang doank..
out of the darkness and into the sun 12:12 AM
