Tuesday, September 09, 2003
Being betrayed or backstabbed is an awful feeling.. I can really tell.. And it's kinda happen to me over and over again.. I wasn't really being back-stabbed or anything.. but.. it still hurts you know.. I really need a good friend to talk to right jow.. Just hope that my other friends doesn't do the anything like her. I don't really know how to explain it.. all I know is that I feel hurt, sad, betrayed, alone, confused and most of all I feel like shit. I really feel like my existance in this world never matters to anyone.. I feel like I'm close into dying..
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Yea, well maybe I was just being too pathetic and stupid.. but oh well.. let's just face the world and move on. She was sorta nice to me today. Really nice, if you ask me.. but, shit happens.. and I accidently read a little note about she talking about me (again) to her other friend (again). And once again... it hurts..
--
Say Anything by Good Charlotte

Here I am on
The phone again, and
Awkward silence is
On the other end
I used to know the sound
Of a smile in your voice
But right now (right now)
All I feel (All I feel)
Is the pain of the fighting
Starting up again

All the things we talk about
You know they stay on my mind
On my mind
All the things we laugh about
They'll bring us through it every time
After time after time

Don't say a word
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away
I know you wanna stay
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything

Some say that
Time changes
Best friends can
Become strangers
But I don't want that
No, not for you
If you just stay with me, we can make it through
So Here we are again
The same old argument
And now I'm wonderin'
If things'll ever change, yeah
When will you laugh again?
Laugh like you did back when
We'd make noise til 3 AM and the neighbors would complain

All the things we talk about
You know they stay on my mind
On my mind
All the things we laugh about
They'll bring us through it every time
After time after time

Don't say a word
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away
I know you wanna stay
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything

I'm fallin' I'm fallin'
I'm fallin' down
I'm fallin' I'm fallin'
I'm fallin' down
Down Down Down

out of the darkness and into the sun 8:03 PM



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